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# I'm a Virgo. # I was born year of the Monkey. # I wet the bed until I was 8 or 9 years old. # I was held back a year in Kindergarten because my social skills weren't developed. # I finished 6th Grade Math in the first quarter of that year. # I flunked 7th Grade Math because the school would not even consider advancing me to Algebra. # I aced the Algebra entry test my 8th Grade year. # My father is an autodidact (automath). I am an autodidact. My younger brother is an autodidact. # I believe in intelligence (as an ultimate truth), and it is either inborn, or not. # My social skills suffer to this day. # I am comfortable in my intelligence and with lacking social skills. # I am an INTJ / INTP personality type (Jung). # I know that I am better than most other people. # I know that I am better than most people because ethics and moral sense come before and above individualistic pursuits. # I do not do drugs. # I have no problem with most drugs, or recreational users. I take major vice with drug addicts, non recreational users, and law enforcement alike for limiting such freedoms. (I would still not do drugs out of choice). # I smoke cigarettes (it is a drug). I drink on occasion and may have the "alcoholic bug," so watch my drinking warily. # I love tea. I do drink coffee, too. # I'm a fast-food junkie. # I've gotten "pudgy" in the last few years and I'm comfortable with keeping my weight below a certain point. # I was raised Catholic and no longer participate in "the Church" due to the ambiguities built in with dogma and seeking faith to resolve such instead of seeking truth and individual, intelligent understanding. # My "religious" beliefs parallel Buddhism, and Taoism and some obscure religions. # I believe in philosophy as a core principle of life more-so than modern one-god religions. # God gave us all a brain for a reason. Why forsake that gift? Not thinking, and failure to heed moral and ethical sense, and then turning to "God" for forgiveness is a sin against your "God" and humanity, in forsaking that gift. # I believe stupid people have no right to complain. # I have an evil laugh. # I have a dark and very much irony based sense of humor. # I laugh at things in my head when I hear someone say something stupid outwardly. # Much of my discomfort in social situations is about some of these facts. # I do NOT believe in coddling people, nor candy-coating the truth to make a fact easier to digest psychologically. I think it makes people weak, and have unreasonable expectations that the world will be nice all of the time, and under false pretenses. # I believe my psychology to be somewhat unique, very few others with my perspective and beliefs, seeking these people out in kindred spirit of friendship and interest. # I believe my philosophy AND psychology to be very existential. # I secretly care for the world at large, and believe that it is a choice to think and at least make a concerted effort towards being a better human. # Despite my general dislike of people I perceive below me, I recognize that we each have something to teach each other, and I hope someday someone can help me come to better terms with some of the stuff here. # In disliking many people, it is my experience with many people who do not know who they are, attempting to be "individuals" while shopping at the same stores as their friends, seeking to make "impressions" on others under false pretenses. I have respect for people who know who they are, and are comfortable in their own skin, live their own lives irregardless of what others' may think, and irrespective of intelligence or competence. (I have more respect for a dumb redneck sitting on a porch being a dumb redneck, and knowing he's dumb as a brick, than I do for "individuals" in modern society who try to be someone or something that they subversively know they are not all due to "peer pressure." # I believe that anti-drug (or anti-whatever) campaigns emphasizing rejection of "peer pressure" are bullshit, wasteful, and ineffective - "peer pressure" is built into every society ("mimicry is the sincerest form of flattery"). # My first love is a lesbian, and though I will always love her, I resent and hate the bitch for not telling me until years later (there are many other facts, not relevant for a long winded rant in this place). # I have tattoos. # My first tattoo is of a saying which represents my core philosophy on truth. # I plan on dying with tattoos of many sayings which represent what I stand for and believe in, if for nothing else than to give a coroner something interesting to read. # I am and will be a life-long fan of the Dave Matthews Band (not just the man in name; the entire band). # I have an appreciation of and for technically articulate music (not "experimental"). # I dig most jam / jazz / world-beat / down-beat / ambient music. # I want to be a DJ. # I wish I could be paid to sit around watching movies and listening to music all day (or night). # I am a night-owl by default. # I dislike Television (TV, the "Tele"). # I love movies. # I don't understand modern, Western "stupid humor" (like Will Farrell). # I dig slapstick, irony-based, intelligent, and dark humor. # My answer to the "What is life?" question is: Life is what you make it. (or Life is what you make of it.) # I think of pride and honor in the "classical" sense. # I HATE unethical and individually motivated people (those who hurt others without regard for the consequences of their actions, or even more-so, openly and knowingly). # I respect people who make hard decisions, and stay a course (though not in the face of adversity and knowing a decision was wrong pre or post hence). # I give credit only to whom and where it is due. (And have been shunned for this and many above facts - while standing up for my personal beliefs, ethics and virtues.) # I have been fired for blogging about work stress and office politics. # The only member of my family I like is my father's mother, my grandmother. She passed-on when I was 9 or 10 years old. # I care for my immediate family. I do not like my extended family (except for great Aunts and Uncles on my mother's side). # My father attacked me and I hit him with a baseball bat when I was 16 years old. # Our relationship is amicable now (I am a young adult). # Because of the above, I am now a pacifist. I believe in violence only in the sense of and purpose of self preservation, and not in retribution. # I am a worker-bee. # I live for a challenge; I do not like dumb, drone work, or just taking home a paycheck to sit at a desk and not be productive. I think this is not only unethical, but also causes efficiency problems. # I have been declined and fired from jobs for being smarter and more intelligent than my superiors. # Fact is that if someone knows how to motivate me, this last fact does not matter; I have no qualms with intelligence, and do not base my thoughts or decisions on it until someone takes issue with their own lack of it in relation to mine. When people attempt to draw comparisons, or take offense to differences which they are not capable of making up, is when I take issue with their own shallowness and built-in defense mechanisms. # I believe this is a societal problem with deemphasizing individualism, while utilizing the term "individual," thus confusing it. (The same issue with "social networking" websites, such as MySpace, confusing the real meaning of the word "Friend.") I think this also leads to issues of mainstream control tactics which the bulk of the population is not aware of, having it built-in at a young age, becoming compliant drones, cattle and sheep who are subject to the will of other drones, cattle and sheep, who are still not aware of this subservient and non-individualistic relationship. # These issues explain a lot of problems in society. In expressing this, many individuals I have met become very confused if they attempt to think about it and resolve the built-in conflict and ambiguities, rather than accepting certain facts, while questioning others, to become a better person. # "You are not your couch." (From the movie, "Fight Club.") You are not a unique butterfly or individual, when you follow the lead of others, not aware that you are a follower, nor are you an individual. Uniqueness, as beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. I behold my own uniqueness in understanding and comprehending these things. This is my level of uniqueness and individuality. In some regards, I am an unknowing follower, as well as a drone-cow-sheep, and seek to rid myself of this control in my life through contemplation and thought over how to live my life while doing away with illegitimate social programming controls. (i.e. living in and getting along with a society which demands such, while also being faithful to my own beliefs, and not being a hypocritical or two-faced) # I have been shunned for expressing these views. # "Why?" was one of my first words. # "Why?" is a burning question to this day.
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