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# Like Latinos, I have 4 names; Emre - Burak - Turhan - Mehmet. This is very very unusual in Turkey. # I'm vegetarian. See why here: http://www.longbets.org/262 # I'm the son of a singer (who was quite popular in Turkey in early 80's) # I'm vulnerable to fall quickly in love! # I had 3 obsessions while I was a kid: 8 - pink - backup... 8 was a special number for me - I don't know why - I always tried not to use and hear this number. Pink was my special color in the same way.. I tried not to touch my pink toys. And I had the obsession of keeping a backup everything. Every time my father drove, I asked him if he had used the backup tires or not :) I don't mind any of them anymore. They're still special for me but for instance I don't even backup regularly my server. # I'm a descendant of Sokullu Mehmed Pasha. He is the most famous grand vizier in Ottoman Empire history. He was originally from Serbia and Christian but then converted. He was pacifist, conquered Cyprus for strategic reasons, had big dreams like connecting Mediterranean Sea with Red Sea (with something similar to today's Suez Canal) and Black Sea with Caspian Sea. If his dream could come true, Colonization, Industrialization, Russia, Europe and Turkey would be highly affected. # My old school friends always made fun of me because of the 3 things I mention above: my name, my surname and my father's job. Whenever I started a new year, a whole new class, new people, teacher made the attendance and I became the target of the audience just because of my name and surname! That's why I became really the opposite of ego-centric. And to be honest, there has been times I lied about my father's job, just not to hear the laughters and stupid jokes. # I'm heterosexual. But I don't know what would happen if I were born in a different society like Macedonia of Anticity (as described in Troy, the movie). # I don't love what I study (chemistry). But computer sciences is my passion! I was always very good (even the best) in maths. But stupid me didn't choose computer sciences (thanks to my sister!) # I'm still angry with my mom and sister, I made some very critical bad choices because of them! But I love all my family. # Religion: I have my own religion which somehow holds similarities with Pantheism, Islam, Taoism and some others. Practically, I'm Muslim, I love this identity and feel very close to those who suffer just because they're Muslim. But to be frank, I can't believe it truly and completely. I'm Spinozist determinist. My thoughts are in parallel with those that are found in Taoism and Pantheism. In fact, I don't like to define my religion with these adjectives because my way of thinking wasn't reshaped by them. Contrarily, my philosophy majoring friends helped me to express myself with fancy words. It would take too long to describe my thoughts here but I will. # I never did drugs. In fact I'm very scared of them. One of my uncles died of heroines. My mom always hided this, told he died because of a malady. Another uncle of mine told me the reality while we were on a holiday trip with him. I can never approve this unnecessary behavior of my mom, and she still insists he didn't die of heroines!! But I don't know, maybe this hurts her too much, in fact she's a very closed person, our communication with her is very weak. # I don't even drink alcohol. That's because of my religious habits and my father who drinks too much... My dad was hospitalized twice and had 2 big car accidents because of his alcohol problems. # I know people considered "smart" - graduated from or studying in top schools like MIT, Princeton, Stanford. I also know "low-level" people - who have jobs like prostitution, drug dealership. I see absolutely no difference in between some of them. Life is an intriguing and often tragic game. # My grand-mother was Alzheimer. She passed away like 6 months ago. All family was actually happy that her pains were over. # We have schizophrenia and heart-attack problems in my family. # The brother of my grand-father (from the father side) was one of Turkey's most notable physicists. He was one of the founders of The Scientific and Technological Research Council of Turkey. # While I was a child, I was willing to die when sleeping.. # While I was a child, my parents were always fighting. Once, my father was hospitalized, cops came into our home. I was hiding myself under my table and crying, the cop came and tried to cool me down for a few seconds. Now thanks god, they're divorced - not officially, but they live separately... # I cried again while writing the entry above. # I never saw my grand-fathers, they were dead when I was born. # I love diversity and that's why I enjoy being here, in USA. You see people from every nations and cultures around. I love Turkey but actually I was bored seeing same type of people around me all the time. # I've studied in a French school for 8 years and I was very very fluent in French but now I almost forgot it! # After high school, I got acceptance from Paris Pantheon Sorbonne. I was supposed to study Economics there. But I couldn't because my visa interview was on 2001, 9/12, just 1 day after 9/11 attacks and the consulate was like a hell. This is a deep issue, I'll tell more about this later. # I would like to be taller.. But I'm quite happy with my physical appearance. # I was very religious before 16. This has many reasons, I'll explain later. # Although my family is absolutely not religious, I used to pray everyday and even practice some islamic rituals like "namaz" years ago. # One of my uncles was jailed because of his leftist politic views in 80's. # I was having fun to suck batteries while I was a child! Then I've learned that it's very dangerous and can cause brain damages! I regret that! # I love Japanese culture. I tried to learn Japanese in university but stuck in Hiragana and couldn't go on because of my bad grades. # I love Thai cuisine! # I love open source but I'm not an open source zealot. I love the diversity and I'm happy with the current Linux - Microsoft competition. # I'm a Facebook addict now! # I may be a selfish person, I'm not sure. But I'm definitely pragmatic. # There will be nothing about my sexuality here anymore, I did wrong things n my past! I regret :( # I consider myself lucky
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